Yeap I’m a bit more than halfway into my 4-weeks teaching attachment program.. and since i am not a really good writer i’m not sure if i’ll do justice to my reflection here.
nevertheless it will be something i’m going to put down in words, just so that one day in the future i might come back and read about it (and maybe see how i have or have not grown up…) i remember us having to share about why we take up teaching at the start, and that sharing itself was a humbling experience.
i met peers my age who are genuinely passionate and know what and why they want to go into teaching right from the start, and i have also personally confessed that i didn’t want to be a teacher.
i was actually against being one, until i decided to apply to be one eventually (that is after i graduate).
you know how some things you have to try for yourself before you make a decision, and then there is also the cliche saying of: never say never? yeap.. actually if you ask me why i chose this profession i might not actually be able to spell it out clearly? simply because i do not think it is a profession where your feelings towards it can be spelled out clearly and empirically.
but one thing i do keep in mind is: i want a job that teach me and let me learn as much as i can through meeting people.
call it selfish or anything, i actually chose teaching because i know it will not be a ‘boring’ job and it will not be desk-bound. more importantly it is something that allows me to interact with people, and young people.. i truly believe that who you surround yourself with will shape you as a person, so being with young people makes me young too?
anyways, the current attachment experience i’ve had is really humbling. just being with the students itself is a joy, although they can sometimes be annoying and we even have minor generation gap. but interacting with them teaches me and constantly remind me that sincerity is the way to go when communicating with others. secondly, classroom management is an art. everyone has his/her own style, and whatever works for you it’s great (of course it transform and evolve as time goes by).
today i also met a contract teacher, who shared her background and story with me. teaching being her second career and how she found meaning in the job.
maybe im being repetitive and not making a point here, but if there is one thing i can take away so far it will be: everyone has a story to tell (teacher or student), and the education industry offers this chance for you to discover the good in people and maybe also the good in yourself.
i am half-way into my attachment.. and i think maybe not even half-way in the journey to becoming a teacher. because being/becoming a teacher never stops, perhaps until the day you quit the force? hmmm..