Places i could live in… forever. hahah


[Editor’s note: In celebration of the holidays, we’re counting down the top 12 Flavorwire features of 2012. This post, at #4, was originally published December 13, 2011.] The college library, whether ornate or modern, digital or dusty, is in many ways the epicenter of the college experience — at least for some students. It is at once a shining emblem of vast, acquirable knowledge, a place for deep discussions and meetings of the mind, and of course, a big building full of books, which, as far as we’re concerned, is exciting enough. Colleges and universities are understandably quite proud of their libraries, which can be a selling point for prospective students and donating alumni alike, and they often become the most well-designed and beautifully adorned buildings on campus. To that end, and perhaps to inspire your studies a bit, we’ve collected a few of the most beautiful college…

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7 Things That Happen To You When You Are Completely Honest | Thought Catalog

7 Things That Happen To You When You Are Completely Honest | Thought Catalog.


this is refreshing, new motto in life: to be honest.

starting from now, i really want people to think i live a minimalist lifestyle, am fuss-free with things and of course that when they look at me they see one who gives honest opinion/answer. ya, hopefully people feel that.. but if they don’t at least i’m honest~

Randomness but not so random either…

Um… I kind of like browsing Tumblr, especially those art blogs that I follow.. Images makes me feel calm, and more specifically abstract art. so we’re free to interpret, there is no right or wrong and really judgement is often being overwrite by giving others the benefit of doubt.

While we’re at this, I was reading this interview by a celebrity and how it does give you some insights and maybe reflection of how wise this person is? People may say that people with high public profile often lie, and their credibility is really low, like their words are not ‘authentic’

Okay it’s really none of my business since I really can’t be bothered with all these fandom or media idolisation (is this the right term?).. But I guess one thing that I get out of reflecting and just random thinking is that, behind every lie there is some truth? To rephrase it, there is some truth to what has been said each time (like how it does reflect some part of our thoughts…) Then it occurred to me that lying to others would also be lying to yourself, I guess personally this is a bad feeling having to even lie to yourself.. and then we’re always told to question that is authentic… So i guess for most part I choose to give others the benefit of doubt.

Back to what I ‘gain’ from reading the interview is… I think we would do better with wise people rather than smart people..

Being smart in the straight forward manner means high IQ, but being wise in a way is allowing your good thoughts and experiences being reflected through your actions and words? (It’s all my own definition and no one has to agree)

Lastly, on a very random note I seem to feel detached to everything around me. It’s like everything else seems very over the top and sometimes I wish to tell people: please don’t see your life as one big drama, it can be your story but please don’t make it into a drama such that people has to agree with you on it being dramatic.

PS: ending with a great quote “knowledge is learning something every day. wisdom is letting go of something every day.”


This post is inspired/triggered by something I read on FB, and it would be really blunt or perhaps confusing at some point..

i often wonder what if i am aware that i am not a nice person as i would hope myself to be? i want to be a better person, especially in the gracious department.. maybe i’m being greedy, but when i was younger i always thought i want to be someone whom others can identify and say: oh yes she is a gracious and kind person. and because of this, one is also beautiful (not the looks aspect).. this is a very obnoxious thought and i’m overestimating myself.

nevertheless i still try to be better, but sometimes you inherently know that you are influenced by the ‘bad’ i.e. being practical, staying on guard, then it takes away your faith to open up to people (skepticism and being defensive).. and perhaps it even takes away how you can truly display your kindness and graciousness towards others. by my own definition i hope it will be to “doubt less and believe more”.

i never used to be like this, but as i grow older and being aware of some hard truths about the odds stacked against one, this realization has taken away some of those trusting and innocent (perhaps kind) qualities a younger person would have. maybe it’s a form of defense mechanism?

in simpler terms, as one gets older somehow one becomes more complicated and less trusting.

of course i perfectly understand that our perception of the world and our attitude changes as we get older.. simply because we’re more aware and more informed. just sometimes, i cannot help but think what if we can be granted the choice to remain trusting and retain that innocence, even with the knowledge that the world out there can be full of deceit? if one had chosen to retain those child-like traits are we not protecting ourselves by being more trusting?

personally if given the choice i would want to retain those qualities, they might seem as useless tools in the real world setting (cos maybe people will take advantage of you or something…) because these are inherently good qualities right?

i actually do believe in karma, and that if a trusting person is being shortchanged or disadvantaged, somehow time will make up for this loss. while i may believe in this, i don’t find myself practicing it very often and have allowed skepticism to get the better of me recently and even i don’t feel at ease with myself (i just have this hunch about this, and it’s usually accurate).

while i haven’t figured out the exact answer to this unclear question i have inside me, i do realize that i need to be more trusting and live as though i haven’t lost those child-like qualities.. i mean it is rare in this ‘cruel and practical’ world, but because it is rare, it has also become something precious.

to end off, perhaps being aware is a first step to being better; but even if it isn’t so i still hope i can be at ease with myself.. it is true that one’s life is a learning journey and we never stop learning. may each day be a day that makes us better and in our own right, beautiful.

the thing i read that triggered this post is:
“When we make choices in life, we have to keep reminding ourselves the very reason behind it. You might be glad you had chosen the path you chose, or you might regret it – you want to tear your hair apart, cry your heart out and wish that you can turn back time. The truth is, we can never be ready for anything, but if you don’t take that leap of faith, you can never really be, something. 

Follow your heart, not your checklist. Sharp dressing and good looks don’t solve arguments – beauty is in someone who understands and evolves with you.”

wise words, and right now i’m skeptical towards this intelligent saying and kept questioning why had i not think like this and even how much does this person practice what she preaches? but i guess there are lots of things out there to learn and for now i’ll attempt to credit that person’s noble-mind..

ps: maybe one day when i read back on this piece of ramble, i will laugh at myself but for now i am thankful for being able to express it =)

A ‘nightmare’ to a constant.

It just occurred to me! And actually it’s a hunch that my thinking will only straighten out after 27Mar.. I’ve been working on this since forever, okay since I was 7+.. Recently I’m just thinking only about this exam.

It started out really like a wonderful endeavour, then midway somehow it became a nightmare a forced thing… it finally dawned on me that it will be a constant in my life, and only when I grew older did I realise that it mattered to me. I’m not a good piano player, I don’t think I am anyways but I like playing on it.. It’s like what a friend said, a luxury.

Yes a luxury that allows me to get away from hectic mess and the mundane work, it’s another form of thinking work but it’s enjoyable. Since my journey has been a very long one, with a couple of pauses in between I think this final exam is something that will matter to me a lot.. Or at least of importance. It will definitely put a wonderful end to the ‘official’ part of the journey though I know overall I will continue with it. And with hope of a wonderful end, I hope for a decent outcome too 🙂

I heard this sentence somewhere which I am gradually using it to guide myself… “Always ask ourself if it will matter to you one year on, if it doesn’t don’t be too uptight about it.” For now I know piano will still matter to me so I guess I can be uptight about it 🙂

“what makes you happy?” – my humbling experiences every week

“what makes you happy?” – my humbling experiences every week.

Just my two cents worth in response to this shared blog post…

A meaningful post, or rather honest enough to make me reflect on myself. Probably not to a very large extent, but this gave me an awareness that I could potentially become an apathetic and shallow person i.e. one who is caught up with only what is in front of me, forgetting that the world out there is big and there are problems bigger than my own and people more unfortunate than myself.

With this reflection, I know I have a lot to be thankful for and should always continue to count my blessings. and of course as the blogger mentioned, to always better yourself.

I guess even if making yourself better is an inherently ‘selfish’ motive, I think inevitably in the process one could learn and pick up things that would make us a better person, and perhaps become aware that we too can do good for others.

PS: Thank you Wonderrrgirl!

The ‘classic’ songs

Saturday and there’s quite a bit to complete.. but well I’m sure I can hang in there and just finish up the necessary work.. today has been good i guess, perhaps just the right time to share songs that i think are really good =)

Really powerful vocals, especially Phil Collins! Actually heard this song on the TV but well it’s really good..

One of my favourite song by Ronan Keating.. Came across this a few years back watching Notting Hill, which remains one of those really sweet movie that I really like!

just that nowadays we don’t hear such beautiful and maybe meaningful songs anymore..but so glad that the internet is around for us to look back at the treasures from the past~