属于。。

有时候你认为自己在某种程度上占了优势,最后发现那也没什么。

有时候你认为自己好像与众不同,最后发现只是没看见其他的人。

有时候你认为自己比较优秀,最后发现若别人看不到那么你的优秀似乎不成立;这样的你好像也不怎么特别。

有时候。。。

我永远记住这句话:“你内在所存的东西别人拿不走;思想、学问、坚持、态度。。。因为它们完完全全属于你。”

所以,为了让自己也有拿不走并属于我的东西须更精益求精。

完完全全的 优势、与众不同、优秀都能保持的自我。

PS:你时时刻刻都能提醒自己要享受一切的一切吗?那种根本没压力的态度 =)

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阅读。。reading.

我一直不明白自己从什么时候开始把阅读当成是嗜好。很多喜欢看书的人都是从小培养这份兴趣的对吧?相反地,我从小都不喜欢碰书。。让我一年看完一本书可以说是奇迹。

回顾过去,似乎已经过得太久了;自己的习惯也改变了好多好多。不过这份改变是好的。

可能因为中二的时候我真正地从书中得到启发,那渐渐让我把看书当成是让自己更有修养的踏板?虽然幼稚的脑袋这么想不太单纯,不过渐渐地 我喜欢看书。因为书不像人,你不需要担心它的喜怒哀乐,面对书的时候我可以做回我自己。无论我对它的想法怎样我都不需在意。

现在虽然没什么时间看书,不过每当我到书店都会买一本书。。我总是自信地认为,以后我一定有时间慢慢地把这些书都看完 并从中得到启发。现在我了解了,书并不完全带给我们启发。。阅读才会。那么我想现在阅读报纸也会不错。

recently i’ve picked up a short stories/graphic book by a korean author; the book has been translated into Chinese. i haven’t had time to finish it, but halfway through it, i know that i don’t regret buying it.

it got me thinking: what inspires us? what let us learn? what allows us to exercise introspection? what is my purpose here? what do i want for myself, for my life?

i find reading to be a good hobby, one that show new worlds to us, so we can learn from them~

what i really want to say is, recently everyone around me has become disillusioned and sick of work.. it’s almost the end of the semester and it’s only normal to do so. we rant. we complaint. we feel frustrated.

a schoolmate i respect showed me this link: http://zenpencils.com/comic/89-stephen-fry-ultimate-self-help-book/#.UIv7LcLtUU8.twitter i got the message.. and trying hard to better myself..

but really it’s through reading that i find myself sorting out my thoughts, and agreeing with what was shared in that article..

“人们的攀比心理是竞争的动力,更是对社会不满的源头。幸福的终极,终极的幸福,是一种个人的感觉。。。” how appropriate, what i’ve learnt is: we all have our own interpretations and for many things, it all boils down to what we make of it..

it might be difficult to propel ourselves to the positive direction, but i know it is worth trying..

残像

《残像》

表情、心境 可否相称。
在外头的你 跟内心的我
可否对对称?

当时如今,心境非异;
问 徘徊?否

若在喧哗时 平淡
若在无奈时 包容
若在寂静时 喜欢
若在红尘间 不染

问 成长?

领悟 终究,是
残像。

Talking about life… when i want to~

Week 10. I am starting to think all I ever have to blog about is school, feelings associated with school? but i know my life is more than that… Week 10, there isn’t much time left, but somehow these few days i feel like i am procrastinating and after that i feel very guilty.

don’t really know what to make of it but a close friend told me sometimes we need a break from all of that. yes i totally agree, but reality might be different no? and so i realised maybe it is time to stop with the pressure and stressed thing.

and today i will only blog about what i want to share, basically things that goes through my head with no regards to school or work. i have enough of those, for now.

just over the weekends i had a moment of “zoning out” that is allowing myself to not be focused, not a good habit but i mean it’s times like these that i really think about the “life-y” stuff.. all i have to say is… I really don’t believe in perfection. truthfully speaking if anyone tells me they are perfectionist now, i will probably judge them in my heart; in the past i used to think being a perfectionist is something to be proud of… but really as i get older i come to realize perfection is overrated.

i guess the more appropriate thing to say is: I strive for excellence, not perfection. you see, things are always changing i mean change is the only constant right? and if something is perfect it would only mean it is perfect for that moment and most likely it cannot be changed, and if it cannot change how can it adapt? without this, it will end up being imperfect again…

excellence on the other hand is the product of giving our best, it will not be subjected to any form of imprisonment.. because the essence of it all meant that it embodies our best effort and we have few regrets, and because it isn’t perfect as we become better, our benchmark for excellence gets higher too. that is really my conclusion, so i really don’t like it when people becomes anal and strive for perfection, i think they are just kidding themselves.

why push so hard for something when you might not enjoy the process?

i guess it really is something that i’ve read that sort of enlightens me, perfection is unattainable, but excellence is. and if i am constantly seeking perfection, i fear that i might just suck out all the fun and enjoyment from what i do.. which brings me to the next thing i want to type..

gain inspiration from your life everyday.

everyone lives a unique life and that makes it a remarkable thing on its own, even though it is not subscribed by the general public; but who is the one who says one’s life is less interesting than the other? i hope that i am not disillusioned and i can always seek out that fun and interesting aspect of my life.

recently i saw an article and something like this was mentioned:

“Prejudice stems from your own thoughts, just concentrate on what you do.
There isn’t anything particular but I try not to give myself too much stress. Good habits are of course good. But most importantly, I try hard not to give myself too much feelings of pressure. I feel it is important to enjoy it…I want to feel that I am playing as I work. That is how I try to think”

i really feel inspired by this work philosophy, and honestly sometimes meritocracy makes everything less meaningful and the only meaningful thing associated with it is numbers. it makes people who are actually good drop into the category of being not good enough when they have to match up against someone better. but so what if i cannot hit the top numbers, it does not mean that i am not good right? or if i hit the top numbers it does not necessarily mean that i enjoy what i am doing.

for now, i just want to take a step back and just seek out the fun part; not thinking about time and anything. i guess this is a form of salvaging myself.

ps: i am sharing my thoughts and it doesn’t matter if it isn’t being subscribed, i just need an outlet. and we all need more encouragement.

paying expression a visit

Been so long since I last typed a post here, or maybe i thought that it has been long…

week nine. it seems crazy that i’ve more or less survived till now, but of course tired and busy. shouldn’t complain too much, i guess everyone is more or less the same; just that i really cannot wait for this semester to be over!

and pray that i get sep, really need a break.

nevertheless, it is interesting how one assignment requires us to imitate the author and create a magazine from scratch… wow. talk about imitating writing style.. then i thought of something early this morning.

“某种程度上,用言语来“激励”他人;对看透事物的人来说是没有效果的。因为那些只是装饰好、包装好,并有目的地被表达出来。”

hmm direct, honest, unfeeling; but factual?

just glad i have a space to type whatever i want, like how i believe expression is important. may we all get a chance to express ourselves, in any way possible; no need to consider anything else but just put them all out in true honesty.

who cares if people judge, they don’t live your life, they should just concentrate on their own.

on a side note, i really hope i can share more photos there.. not just words, i will try~ but i really just want to share photos of my travels; other than that we’ll see..

and recently been into kpop, not a new phenomenon for me just more mindful of korean entertainment.. and i don’t think mine is too mainstream. a nice song to end this post with =)

PS: have a great life, smile more and think less. really thinking too much about the future freaks me out.

Hi, Stranger

Hi,

Who are you? these days i don’t know who you are, on others i know you with the most clarity. you like things associated with sincerity, responsibility, fun, learning, food.

these days you are just disillusioned, i guess? oh how do i even begin to define you, when we both believe that a person is impossible to define.

can you even begin to find back that spirit that believes: it’s the process that matters more. what’s the point of getting to the destination when you don’t even remember the journey? and learning, enjoying that journey is what helps us remember.

so today, i hope you can begin to discard every single goal you set and be relieved, not feeling owned or possessed.

“go with the natural flow. if something works out, it was meant for it to be”

Love,
Stranger

PS: you will never fall permanently, nor will you rise permanently. every stage becomes a thing of the past.